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It is a strange, stark, scary, wonderful, desperately sad, terrifyingly eye opening, amazing thing when finally seeing you’ve held inconsistent or opposing ideas that simply cannot coexist and therefore undermine and undercut each other.
Strange because it has not been seen before. The thoughts in opposition have lain deep below conscious thought.
Have you ever noticed a difference between night-time thoughts and daytime thoughts? By ‘night-time thoughts’, I specifically mean the ones that roll around in your head when you’d rather be asleep? I usually sleep like a slab of concrete. Head down – BAM – that’s it till Rod turns on the shower in the morning but sometimes… no.
Continue reading “Sleepless nights”
Violets are to me, a happy childhood flower. The proper purple ones, not the variegated ones. I know their scent isn’t everyone’s ‘thing’, but to me the scent represents happy, uncomplicated, sunshine filled days with my mum.
Continue reading “Comfort in the cracks”
What do you see in this picture? It isn’t my style and wouldn’t have caught a second glance from me except for its title and secondly, for the expression on each of the faces. Each of these things pulled me deeper in.
Continue reading “Mother of all the living”
Sometimes when we lose our way in life, it’s like we’ve been whacked with a 4′ x 2′ in one of those old cartoons where the poor critter staggers about for a bit seeing stars and then comes to their senses quite quickly. Other times – the way has been lost incrementally, degree by degree over time without particular notice, but then one day something jolts us awake – and we find we are nowhere that we would have chosen to be – had we seen the end from the beginning.
Continue reading “Getting lost and found”
I read a Facebook post a couple of weeks ago that posed the issue of knowing the difference between conviction and condemnation…. It said that conviction is usually quite specific (like “go to that person and make amends” or “that was wrong”), where condemnation is more general (like “I am hopeless, pathetic, stupid”).
Continue reading “Monthy mood cycle”
Have you ever known a person engaged in the heat of verbal battle to flip sides?
Me either.
About 5 years ago I stopped going to church. This wasn’t the same as when I was 19 and stopped going… at 19 I wanted to avoid His presence (and His people). At 40 something I wanted to soak in His presence but I felt closer to Him getting about my day at home than by being in church.
Continue reading “Stop-start church”
I have tried for so many years to get things right. Still do in many ways but there was a specific moment in time when I not only knew God was God over muddles and imperfection and it was that moment the striving stopped. Things were a muddle. I couldn’t unmuddle it. And I finally threw myself into His bigness, full of need and the most honest I’d probably ever been with myself.
This was a VSP – Very Short Post 🙂