When people hit crisis they’re more likely to reach for help, but when people live just short of crisis they think they’re coping… or that things aren’t so bad… or that they’re better than someone they’re contrasting to (which may even be true)… in crisis things can clarify but the middle is awash with grey.
The ‘grey middle’ is just as damaging as the crisis but less recognisable when in it.
Are you aware of the grey?
Find some help… get some perspective… find someone who will talk truth with you.