Before she was known

Miss T has to take an object along to talk about in her Communication group next week. Sounds a bit like telling ‘news’ but couched differently for older kids. 🙂 She told me she was planning to take either her snow globe or Remy the rat from Ratatouille. Both were presents from her globe-trotting biggest sister Loon. Well OK – Lauren.

Of course this choice is far more to do with love than with the items themselves and I thought for a moment on how wonderful it is as mum to witness such love, which is of course returned. It occurred to me that perhaps I’d never told Tarri the story of Loon’s response the day after we told the family, then aged between 6-16, that there was going to be another little McEwan. The evening itself it one of my favourite memories of all time. In the top 5 for sure, but what Loon did the next day is also right up there.

People often ask about the older kids responses to their parents daring to be pregnant again at 40 and 47 and I love to tell them that it wasn’t anywhere close to being negative but as far opposite as opposite can be.

So – the day after the big news it turned out that not only was Lauren not embarrassed, but that she’d stood up in every class at school (she was in year 12) and announced that she was going to be a big sister again. How gorgeous is that!

I think maybe she thought I might be embarrassed at that…? Also not remotely so.

As I told Tarri the story this afternoon, a most utterly lovely smile spread across her face, and though the two sisters are currently oceans apart, and the event was 12 years ago (say what?!?!) the love was tangible.

I finished by saying how Loonie had loved her from before she even knew her – right from the very moment she knew she was to be.

And in that moment the love of God also was tangible.

Loved before we are known.

Known before we are made.

By the God who knows it all – and all at once – before a moment even comes into being.


For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you

when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;

all the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before
one
of them came to be.

Psalm 139:13-16

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