Ignorance might be bliss but…

A week ago a friend in her 60’s caring for her elderly mum along with her sister, told me how the mums behaviour was changing and making life for all very difficult, but that something that had come to the surface was that the sisters were being set up against each other and how this current behaviour revealed that the mum had done this from their enitre lives… a whole range of situations had now been brought into the light of new information and understanding.

I have wrangled many times with the verse “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world“… and in case there’s any doubt, I do absolutely believe in the actual existence of a being known as many names, including Satan, and that he’s had thousands of years to hone and implement a zillion strategies against humans. Why against humans? Well for one thing, when evil doesn’t get what it wants, it sets about the poisoning and ruin of anything good or pure – for hates own sake and for the purpose of revenge against the One in Whose throne he desires to sit.

Don’t panic – I’m not comparing that elderly mum to Satan – what I am saying though is that through many difficult situations in life I have not been able to see past a current conflict and apply how that verse makes sense. I remember discussing a situation with my sister about 20 years back “but we DO! We DO wrestle with each other!!” And it’s true… we do… but since thinking about that friend from last week I see a slightly wider view… there is a someone who is good at remaining hidden, when he finds he cannot have he can’t have our adulation, adoration or worship – is very strategic and utterly unfair, striking at our most vulnerable moments – and will actively set out to steal, kill, rob, destroy, devour and decimate.

If we will not worship him – he will set about souring our worship of the Saviour in malicious ways using relationships and circumstances in myriad ways. And because we’re often not wise to his strategies – he can make ground.

We can attribute too much to the devil.

We can also attribute too little.

So soft that only the heart can hear he whispers fear and lies, mistrust and misunderstanding, deceit and power in many shades from his place in the shadows. Perhaps remembering he is about the destruction of lives, families and worship – and will pit people against each other by whatever means – is a place to start getting wiser.

Has he been stirring your pot?

What Tomatoes taught me about God

It is a very good thing that God isn’t like me. My interest in raising these tomatoes lasted longer than in my usual horticultural efforts, but it still waned. After a couple of months I was forgetful and busier in other directions and sure as you like, I forgot to keep watering, checking, restaking. Thankfully Rod noticed my usual gardening habits had kicked in and he picked up on the watering so they didn’t die but their yield won’t be as big as if I’d maintained more thorough care in the early weeks.

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One day when our first grandbaby was living and in such a fragile state I had a minor but major moment in which some ways of seeing life shifted sharply – with the kind of swiftness and visibility of a camera refocussing.

Dashing through the school, driven with the desire to get to the hospital as soon as I could, another mum was in a quandary about her child. I quickly said what I thought and as I kept moving was struck with the knowledge that it was the seriousness of a life in balance that gave me clarity and speed to speak and without that, I too would have still been standing by my child’s classroom feeling so uncertain.

One of the things God has used to teach and draw me over the past year is this verse… “Seek first His kingdom and righteousness and all these things will be added to you”. (Matthew 6:33)

The context it was said within matters rather a lot as always… and I could write pages on the verse in its context but here, what I want to say is just this…

I have a tendency to chase after the very things the Father already knows I need.

I have a tendency to inflate wants and desires into the place of need.

I am a Dory. Continuously distracted.

I am also His loved child who, by His grace alone, is consistently drawn back. He takes my face in His hand and compels me to look at His face again.

When I’m seeking (with my whole heart) after God, – His kingdom and righteousness – that other stuff snaps into the background perspective.
Present.
Needed.
Seen.
Acknowledged.
Messy and in need or order – but soothed into its proper place.

“Seek FIRST His kingdom and righteousness
and
all these things will be added to you”

Moving towards

I made a friend when without having met her before, I picked her up as she was walking in the rain on a wintry day 21 years ago. She wasn’t quite a total stranger – I recognised her as a new mum at our current school, and obviously she recognised me as well so she hopped in the car and directed me to her home which she was about halfway through the journey toward.

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Relieved!

I’d gotten myself into a lather over the last few weeks about a decision I needed to make. I felt equally torn for and against it, tried to think of pros and cons either way, talked to Rod, talked to friends, considered counselling, googled articles about decision making, lost sleep, developed 3 (yes THREE) tiny twitches in my face, worried my socks off and finally saw I needed to decline.

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